My pregnancy so far.

I'm 13 weeks and 4 days into my pregnancy so far. Here's my little baby bump so far.

According to babycenter.com, he/she’s the size of a medium shrimp this week! J

It's still little but I’m definitely starting to feel my pants get a little snugger and fit a bit more tighter. In the mornings I feel fine and can fit into my clothes just fine, but after dinner, I don’t know what it is, but I tell Pete that I feel like someone has just blown air into my stomach…like a balloon. It’s not very comfortable and I can’t really sit or lay comfortably at all. I can only imagine that it’s going to get worse as my tummy grows. Luckily during my first trimester I didn’t have much morning sickness. The only thing was that I just felt really, really tired all the time. I didn’t feel like cooking, cleaning, taking Wrigley for a walk or anything. All I wanted was to lay around and be lazy. Now that I’m somewhat out of that first trimester, I’m definitely feeling better. I had a few bouts of nausea but again, not anything like I’ve heard some of my friends say where they are throwing up all the time. I always said it would take a lot to get me to follow through with the upset tummy and actually throw up. Thank the Lord I didn’t have it that bad!

I’ve had two doctors appointments and a sonogram appointment so far. The first doctor’s appointment was at about 8 ½ weeks and I was really nervous for that one. At that point, I knew I was pregnant, but I just wanted the doctor to confirm it. J Other than the two pregnancy tests and the way I was feeling, that’s all I had to go on just trusting that I really had a baby growing inside me. Once I went to the sonogram, that’s when it really became real to me. Pete came with me and I definitely cried when I saw our baby for the first time. Here are the shots that we got from that appointment:

It was such a surreal thing when I saw our baby moving around in my stomach! Even though it wasn’t super clear, you can definitely tell it has the form of a human being. I don’t know how anyone could ever say that it isn’t a life!! I just keep thanking God and am just blown away by His willingness to trust Pete and I to raise this little child up. What an honor!!

I’ve been praying so much for our little babe. Not only the forming process, but that God would just raise him/her up to do great things for the Kingdom. I’ve also been praying that God would just prepare Pete and I to be parents. That He would soften Pete’s heart towards being a dad and that when he holds our little baby in his arms for the very first time, that God would completely FLOOD his heart with love and compassion for our child. There is not a question in my mind as to whether Pete will be a good dad. He is going to do an incredible job leading our family and I just want to continue to learn how to affirm this in him. There’s not another man in the world that I would want to partner in this parenting thing with. I am beyond blessed to have him!!

As for what I’m feeling so far, I think there’s a part of me that’s scared for those first couple weeks. The weeks where all of a sudden we are responsible for this little life that is 100% fully dependent on us for his/her life. I’m scared that I’ll be a good mom and that I’ll make the right decisions with discipline. I’m scared that our kids will rebel when they get older and we’ll not know the best way to raise them to love the Lord wholeheartedly. The more I think about it, the more I realize how much parenting has an effect on who a person becomes and the way their life turns out. My hope and prayer is just that God would enable Pete and I to be the best possible parents that we can be and He would show us the wisdom that we need to parent right and lead our family to a close relationship with God. Aside from being a little scared, I’m just the opposite as well…so excited I can’t even contain myself! J There are moments when I just long to hold my baby and I can’t wait to rock them to sleep and stare at his/her face just knowing that that child represents Pete and I’s love for each other and that they are a part of who we are. I can’t wait till our baby says “Mommy” and “Daddy” and just runs up and throws their arms around our legs, I can’t wait for that little smile and to see Pete fall asleep with the baby on his chest.

The next year is going to bring so many changes and new adventures, just as this past year did. I want to be more consistent about blogging and writing out my pregnancy thoughts so I can read back on this process and see how God works. It’s going to go fast and I don’t want to forget any part of this amazing life forming process!!