Monday, October 13, 2008

i'm a mrs!!

My life has dramatically changed since I wrote last. I'm officially a Mrs.! :) The last month and a half has been a whirlwind. The end of August was my last day of work at church and from there my mom, dad, sister and even the dog packed up the moving truck and we carted my life down south to Wichita, Kansas. We bought a house and it was great to get moved in. That week and a half was such a blessing in that I was able to unpack and get my life semi-settled before the wedding. I appreciated that so much after we got home from our honeymoon. It was good to come "home" rather than just to a house. I flew home and the wedding craziness began.

That week before the wedding was crazy. I've always heard there are tons of last minute details ... they weren't kidding! It was emotional and exciting and exhausting! I think one of the emotional things I was dealing with was the expectations. My entire life I had dreamt about what my wedding would be like and the pressure to live up to those expectations was overwhelming. I wanted it all to be just like I had thought it would be and I was scared it wouldn't be. Now looking back, the whole experience was everything I had dreamed about and I am so pleased with how it all turned out. I prayed so much for that day and the Lord was just so present!

Our wedding day was amazing!! I had a bit of a breakdown right before I went to go see Pete before our pictures. My hair and makeup was done, my vail was on and my shoes and jewelry. The only thing left to put on was my dress. As I was putting it on, I was saying to myself "This is for real, this is for real..." It was surreal. I turned around and saw myself in the full length mirror as a "bride" and I broke. I couldn't even look at myself. There were so many things going through my head at that point. I had seen that picture....the bride in her wedding dress right before the wedding looking in the many movies, on tv, in magazines, everywhere. And now it was me, and it was for real. I was overwhelmed with emotion and greatfulness and excitement and unbelief that it was actually happening. I was going to meet my groom and it was actually my wedding day. For real. I cried really hard for much longer than I expected. God was faithful and my heart was so full of love for Pete. All I wanted was to see him and be comforted by him.

The rest of the day was wonderful!! Our ceremony was so fun and after I had my emotional was pure excitement!! haha...and if you were there, there's no way you wouldn't be able to tell I was excited! haha. I was basically leaping off the stage when Tim pronounced us husband and wife. God had made my heart so ready and finally it was time to be Pete's wife! Our reception was a blast. And besides the fact that the DJ ONLY played rap music (desite the specific list of songs I gave him!), everyone still danced and it was still so much fun!! We stayed till the end of the party and then left at like 10:30ish and were off for our wedding night at the Holiday Inn Express. :) It was especially fun when the fire alarm went off at 3:30 am and the entire hotel sat outside for 45 minutes in the middle of the night. It was okay though...we got half off the cost so it all worked out.

Whoever invented the honeymoon was a genius! It was exactly what I needed...just to relax and be consumed with my husband. Granted, the food was a little tiring (even though I love Mexican food) and I was ready for some good American food by the end of the week. We had a blast though and just enjoyed each other.

And I sit....unemployed still. I'm to the point where I'm starting to get bored. I've watched my fair share of House Hunters and The View and I'm ready to get back into a routine and a schedule. I'm trusting that God has something for me, I'm just trying to do my part in actively searching for it while allowing Him to give me the opportunity to trust Him. Pete has been so good in helping me learn to listen to what God has for me. He is amazing as a husband and I'm so thankful that I have him. Over and over God has just confirmed that this is where He has me and for that I rest in confidence that He will provide me with a way to make the money to pay the bills. He gave us this house and He will not leave us hanging.

Life as a Mrs. is wonderful and I'm just excited for what is still to come. How fun to think that everything I do and everywhere I now go...will be with my husband. Thank you God once again for your faithfulness in bringing me the man I've waited patiently for. He is a blessing and I'm so thankful!!